Saturday, May 26 haiz..how many times have i said that things in this world are indeed strange??its like a river..you never know when its gonna be high or low..mind you i said river..not sea or ocean yah..but at least the waters still flowing..which i thank god for..well..some updates..julz & i went to sentosa..she planned the whole day..sweet lil girl..we took the sky ride & the luge..which was freakin fast..hahah..i felt like a speed demon for once..haha.. in the bus to sentosa the attentions not on us.but the look on the guys face behind us.facial expression MAUT punya!! we're hip-hopers yo!!fo sho!!hahah adorable ain't she? she's way cuter than i am =) our feet were dangling f this pict was suppose to look as if we were driving a truck.but apparently the person DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO TAKE A STUPID SIMPLE PICTURE!!! & TO THINK THEY WERE TOURISTS!!!SHEESH!!!..... so much for that..well after that we headed down to vivocity..planned to catch a movie but only front row seats were left..so we walked around & i felt like havin sum meat but aals i cudnt find any =( so we headed to sg river.sat there for a while cuz julz said we had reservations at 9.sumwhere where we were gonna have dessert.haha.but boy was i in for a surpise.that cheeky lil girl told me she wanted to use the toilet at fullerton.unaware she brought me in fullerton & headed to the chocolate buffet!!!& i was like WHAT THE!!shit man.hahaha.aiyah.cant blame me mah.first time eating in fullerton.one of THE most posh hotels in singapore.wadya expect??!!haha.but i felt so wrong.wearing a polo with a skull & bone on it eating in fullerton.hahaha.but it was rad.a chocolate buffet.yum yum.& surprisingly chocolate goes very & i mean VERY freakin well with tea..added with two cubes of sugar of course.hehehe.saawweeetttaahhh!!! jakun!!hahaha chocolate fondue..or sumthing like that..hahaha chocolates may melt in my mouth & hands..but looking at her melts my heart =) fullerton babe!!haha like minister or not??haha sexy-tarywhat a fun, sweaty yet super splendid day more happened after that.haha.but i wont go into details.maybe the next post.there were some "ugly" & dizzy moments.haha.till next time. ||my heart.bled||12:41 AM

Saturday, April 7 Chris Daughtry - It's Not Over I was blown away What could I say It all seemed to make sense. You've taken away everything And I can't deal with that. I try to see the good in life. But good things in life are hard to find. I'll blow it away, blow it away Can we make this something good? (Well I'll try to do to it right this time around) Let's start over, Try to do it right this time around It's not over Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground. This love is killin me But you're the only one It's not over. I've taken all I can take And I cannot wait We're wasting too much time Being strong and holding on Can't let it bring us down My life with you means everything So I won't give up that easily I'll blow it away, blow it away Can we make this something good? Cause it's all misunderstood (Well I'll try to do to it right this time around) Let's start over, Try to do it right this time around It's not over Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground. This love is killin me But you're the only one It's not over. We can't let this get away Let it out, let it out Don't get caught up in yourself Let it out. Let's start over Well try to do to it right this time around Its not over Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground. This love is killin me But you're the only one It's not over. Lets start over Its not over This love is killin me But you're the only one It's not over ||my heart.bled||5:57 AM

Friday, April 6 weeeee.gt back an hour ago.kinda tired but i stayed up to watch the tele & eat my super duper late supper.haha.i gez if i din eat the food big kahuna bought she wud go berzerkerz 2mro!!haha.today was hectic.slept for like an hour or 2 only cuz i was trying to figure out lyrics for FORGIVES song.had to wake up at 7 to go to werk.then went to meet the guys at town in the evening for recording at TNT.first time being in a recording studio.was shit load full of nerves sia.hahaha.my lyrics werent done.faeroz & ahmad.k took 2 & a half to lay down their parts for the 5 songs.ahmad & i only took a few takes.gosh it was freakin weird man.recording.listening to yur own stupid voice.the sucky part was nt being able to hold the mic.it was sssoooooooooooooooooooooo hard.i really tip my hat to those "screamers"/"gore-rers" who do recording.its really hard.trust me.sounds & seem easy but now i understand.shit dude.haha.but im very & i mean very stoked bout the songs.finally complete with gang chants & all.was very rushing.VERY!!plus my lyrics any-oh-how hantam.but what to do.faeroz wanted to finish it by today.so left for mr ah boy to mix.we started at 6 & finished at 11.40 like that.cant wait to hear the full thing.so excited.this sat duxton plains turn.recordin at snakeweed.cant wait for that. so after that we went to bencoolen street.the kedai2 kopi near gas haus there.faeroz,ahmad,jai frm overthrown & one more dude frm LCHC which i forgot his name.hehe.sat there lepak.talked crap till like 2.45.then headed off to the 7 11 & bought ourselves a big gulp.then sat infront of this fashion.talk more crap & walked all the way to the bus stop at city hall.took night rider number ONE!!..by the time i gt home was like 3.45 i think.haha.it was a good day.new experience.eventhough tiring. ||my heart.bled||4:49 AM

Wednesday, March 28 recently ive been goin goo goo over the goo goo dolls.its nice to listen to some ol school alternative rock stuff.ive been really contemplating alot lately.about almost everything.haiz.i just don't know.lifes been hard.mentally.its weighing me down heavily.i feel like ive gt something to let go.or shud i say something to put back in my mind.its like a pc without a mouse or keyboard.you cant really do much without it.heck you can't do anything with it.k.wait.im like goin over the point here.hmm.ntahlah.i wish for better days.im in the mood for goo goo dolls & their dreamy guitar riffs & oh so sweet singing tunes & lyrics.i wish i cud do that.dreamy guitar riffs.oh yeah.so far im liking the progression of duxtons song writting.loving it. i guess i can relate to this song.all i can do is see you frm a far.but no doubt i'll still be the greatest fan of you'r life. Goo Goo Dolls-I'll Be Your Crying Shoulder The strands in your eyes That color them wonderful Stop me and steal my breath Emeralds from mountains Thrust towards the sky Never revealing their depth Tell me that we belong together Dress it up with the trappings of love I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips Instead of the gallows Of heartache that hang from above I'll be your cryin' shoulder I'll be love suicide I'll be better when I'm older I'll be the greatest fan of your life Rain falls angry on the tin roof As we lie awake in my bed You're my survival You're my living proof My love is alive and not dead Tell me that we belong together Dress it up with the trappings of love I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips Instead of the gallows Of heartache that hang from above I'll be your cryin' shoulder I'll be love suicide I'll be better when I'm older I'll be the greatest fan of your life I've dropped out Burned up Fought my way back from the dead Tuned in Turned on Remembered the things you said I'll be your cryin' shoulder I'll be love suicide I'll be better when I'm older I'll be the greatest fan of your life I'll be your cryin' shoulder I'll be love suicideI 'll be better when I'm older I'll be the greatest fan of you life ||my heart.bled||1:06 AM

Monday, March 26 ooowwwwww.my back hurts as much as my heartache.cheh.haha.no.but seriously ah.my sun burn is really bad man.ive neva been this "red" before.DP,eliss & isma went to the beach yesterday.we had our "summer beach" outing.hahaha.finaly.a day that had nothing to do with music or GAMES!!!or anything else.juz lepak at the beach.played chee ko pak in the water.haha.were also aspiring sand sculpturists.haha.had fun.then we went to eat at mc Dz.as the gals went off we sessioned at the back of vivo.finally.a proper acoustic set with su's voice in it.haha.oh & btw we saw alota beautiful ppl yesterday at the sentosa.haha.although all "ang mohs" they were all so wow wee wow.k.it was quite a bz week 4 me so let me recap on thursday i went out with cna.to be honest i was a nervous wreck.i think its been like 6months or more since the last time i went out with another girl one on one.but it went better than i expected.we went to watch mr bean goes on a holiday.it was freakin hilarious sia.we laffed like hell sia in the cinema.haha.tak habez2 dgn "graciaz" dier & i went crazy when he was begging this lady for money & tried speaking french.ended up he was mumbling all the way.haha.freakin funny sia.then we walked & walked & walked.haha.we took a bus at ps to go to marina but ended up the bus din stop anywhere near marina.haha.it stopped at espla.so we walked AGAIN.haha.ate at the marina foodcourt.boy oh boy.cna may be small & short but she can def eat.haha.she bought a hor fun chicken thing.it was like huge but she managed to finish it by herself.then we went to buy ciggies at 7-eleven.haha.funny sia.the floor was shaking vigorously then we were like.eh.y ah?earthquake eh?padahal kat atas they were doing construction werks.haha.then we lepaked at esplanade.talked & talked.sheesh.i tot i had a long relationship of 3 yrs.hers was like 4 or 5 yrs man.datz freakin long.then i sent her home.nice place sembawang.ver clean.then she intro me to her neighbours.it was nice to see the neighbourhood very like friendly ah.all lepak togther.nope.nt the mats nor minahz tau.but makciks & aunties instead.haha.yeah.then we sat at the playground infront of her block & talked again.her mom kept callin her to go up.she went up when her mom like called her on the 5th time.haha.it was nice goin out wit her.very simple laid back kinda person.i had fun. then on fri i met wan.went for the "interview" at his hotel which consisted me of just filling in a form.haha.dat was it seh.hahaha.but im having 2nd tots on the job ah cuz ill have to shave my beard man.damn.haha.see how lah.then we went to meet his friend who werks at Gant at taka cuz wan was suppose to go for a job interview.went to pacifil plaza for his interview then went to paragon & heeren.all this while his friend was accompanying us.supposedly he was werking.but oddly enogh his 1 hour break came to be a close to 2 hours break.haha.slack sia.haha.we then went to eat at esteller at far east.then bumped into the crazy azrie & his frenz.tak habez kacau aku psl rahima jer.hahah.then wan & i wnt off to penin to search for some pants or wateva.we went our ways at like 7 or so.i met aidil & eliss.headed dwn to suntecs starbuxx.su joined us a while later. sat was a slack day.jammed for only an hour cuz su was late.he had floorball training.nvm.understandable.then we headed down to dwn twn east chalet for a birthday chalet by anvea frm the band misissued.ish.actually i was half hearted to be there.cuz apparently we all aren't aquanted to her.but eliss needed company.so we tot wat the hell.like evryone was there.the bands.the ppl.haha.but it was gd to minggle around & meet new ppl.i juz wished that the rest of the boys wud be more open & interact more with the ppl.nvm.oh & there was this super hot "ang moh-mixx with like chinese-or dun noe wat" babe!!!!hahah.she was wearing this white dress.& her ermmm."assets" may i call it.haha.were perfect man.haha.all of us kept starring seh.haha.k.wait.i juz noticed this post is like really super long.hahaha.k2.i think ill stop for now.haha.till next time baywatch auditions i had no other choice but to sensor my "belly" to protect those who are ill-fainted.its for the best of the public eye.....hahahahah ||my heart.bled||2:44 PM

Saturday, March 24 i don't know what to say or what to do.or shud i say what "not" to do.but i gez sum ppl are right.i can't rely too much on what i want.i can't have high hopes.it sucks to kinda feel that what they say is true.that having high hopes wunt get you anywhere or give you anything other then pain & misery when you don't get it.but i just can't help then to hope.to have it all back.the beautiful moments.the laughter.the feeling of all the warm & fuzzy unexplainable things that go thru my stomach.the sigh of relief when im in the bus thinking of how grateful life can be.as much as i dun like listening to ppls advice i cant help but to think that what they say makes sense.but...at the same time.y?y cant one have high hopes?y izit wrong?but at the same time.y izit so heart wrenching??y izit so painful?i yearn for love.i try so hard.how do those guys who don't even bother & take it for granted get so much affection??.what special powers do they posses?.... i still can't beleive whats happened.but i gez all i can do now is wait & let things go by naturally. a month ago.things were goin so well ||my heart.bled||2:31 AM

Wednesday, March 21 so much for replying calls.so much for the words that are said.i feel a sense of bias-ness of how im being treated lately.but what can i do.for i am no one.theres nothing i can do about it.all i can do is complain bout it.feel frustrated bout it.but i have to accept it.geez.am i really that worthless??.......... ||my heart.bled||12:20 AM

Sunday, March 18 jamming with rahima last 2 weeks ago... the picture below is actually very nice.except for the fact that i look so retarded ;p ||my heart.bled||2:38 AM

Friday, March 9 wow.i cant beleive what happened today!!duxton plains actually jammed with Rahima Rahim!!!yes Rahima from Singapore Idol!!she sang for us!!shes gonna sing for us at our upcomin gig at Hau Yi Sec.haha.ITS SOOO FREAKIN KEWL!!Rahima leh!!wahlau!!hahaha.so cannot beleive it seh!!!Rahima Jammed with us!!!Lepak wit us!!go 7-11 wit us!!take train wit us!!walk wit us!!!hahaha.i was in presence of a celebrity!!!!weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.so kewl man!!!haha.cant wait to rock out with her!!oh & the best thing was she smsed me after she gt back.saying she had fun & loved jammin wit us.sayin we were gd.weeee.dats really awesome man.oh & boy she can sing.& screamo too!!!haha.cant wait to rock the stage with her soon!!weeeeee.will put up pixx.will DEFINATELY put up pixx of our jammin wit her & the gig too.weeeeeeeeee.haha ||my heart.bled||1:10 AM

Friday, March 2 yeah.great.hmm.weird isnt it?wud it be weird if you went out with somebody, then he/she wud pick up calls or sms (that u actually dun mind) but when he/she goes out with somebody else he/she doesn't pick up yur calls/reply yur sms.i mean he/she wud say "Ya' know i hate calls & sms!!" but infact you see them checkin their hps (if not pickin up calls/replyin sms's) evrytime when their with you.so its like so evidential yet he/she is trying to deny it.wudnt you find dat weird?like is'nt that so In YOUR Face?hmm.i have no idea what im babbling about.but i definately know that im not pleased.not pleased at all after what has been said.what has been assured. "weird how some things seem destined, yet uncertained" ||my heart.bled||10:19 PM

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